Wednesday, December 31, 2014

The breakup post with 2014

Dear Mr. 2014:

I honestly thought that you'd be one of the more boring years I've had recently. Granted, I did turn 40 this year, but honestly I think you'd be all about stability. I entered the year with a relatively stable job, no big plans or goals happening, just trudging along with no expectations.

I should've remembered that when I have no expectations of anything happening, everything happens. Along the way, I keep relearning things, remembering things, and I feel a greater sense of gratitude.

You surprised me the most on the career front. Towards the end of the year, I ended up getting recruited from a very stable (but extremely stressful) retail chain pharmacy job to an independent pharmacy where I'm running the show and pharmacist-in-charge (hence the last post). It's only been about 3 weeks, but I absolutely love it. I love the freedom, the regular workdays, the responsibility, and even the crazy challenges by pretty much going solo and being trusted by my boss to get the job done. I also started doing a side job doing drug info and being a clinical pharmacist editor/writer/consultant here. Combining the two things that I love most about being a pharmacist has been pretty awesome. It also helps that I became volunteer clinical faculty at two universities too (here and here). Not shabby for being a pharmacist for barely two years!

You also reminded me of the importance of friends and family. My old work schedule made it impossible to hang out with anyone; I'm now re-connecting with old friends and family, and I'm making new friends. It forces me out of my comfort zone, to be a normal human being, and to just be me--one of the hardest things to be sometimes!

To that end, you also forced me to look at what I wanted to change about my life and make myself happier. I took myself back to the gym, and I'm much happier working out again, and getting rid of that stress. And thanks for reminding me what muscle fatigue is. Oy....

You've also reinforced that time doesn't stand still. While I'm going through a stable part of my life right now, you've reminded me to help people who aren't doing so well; to lend an ear, to donate, to provide support. Maybe that's why life is so satisfying right now, that I'm finally able to give back to the communities that have really supported me for so long.

And finally, thanks for introducing me to some great guys who've helped me accept myself truly; not just the smart brainy part, but all the other parts I choose to forget. You've introduced me to some guys who actually like bigger Asian guys, and you've reminded me that I am a person deserving of friendship, intimacy, sex, and (dare I say it?) love.

I have to say, Mr. 2014, thanks for introducing me to one of my biggest fans (rolling eyes). I have to thank his persistence, and for you for opening my eyes to notice his charm, his good looks, his smile, his jokes, his sweet personality, and for opening my heart to this new possibility. We'll see where this goes, but I'm looking forward to this ride...

So Mr. 2014, thanks for being the year that I wasn't expecting, and for providing me with not what I really wanted, but what I really needed. A dose of reality, and rewards and karma for everything that has happened. I hope Mr. 2015 will be just as sweet and wonderful as you are (I just have to try to stay humble, grounded and focused!).


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